sedar x sedar dah masuk bulan febuary dah . dah hampir 3 bulan aq meninggalkan zaman persekolahan . do i miss it ? obviously YES . but do i want to repeat my school`s years ? definitely NO . no . no . nooooo .... tpi rindu lar jgak dngn kawan2 kat skola . both sedamai and merchuan :) . now , just keep counting days before the actual spm results comes out .
how did i spend my holidays so far ? well , not really an interesting story to share . everyday layan twitter , youtube , tgok drama , marathon law n order (season 1-4) , keeps feeling nervous about my spm result . currently there`s a lot of rumors going on about graf tinggi lar , results keluar awal , nak masuk u less than 5A`s susah lar . people should stop doing that , it`s hell damn terrifyingggggg . aq tau based on the way i answered , its hard to be confident that i would get flying colors . aq hope dpt masuk matriks pon dh ok lar . at first i was targeting for foundation . sometimes bile dh jemu worrying about my results, bkk fb .aq x update status pon hnye membace status kwn2 .. sometimes aq fikir even results keluar awal pon ok jugak .
ramai kawan aq take this break opportunity utk bekerja . ade yg jdi clerk , waiter , cashier , keje kilang , yg jadi cikgu pon ade . mule2 aq pon cdg nak kerje , but dah sebati plak ddk rumah lepas 3 bulan nie . :p . now youtube is my best companion . malam pagi petang . kdg2 x keluar bilik tgok youtube . dah banyak dh drama aq khatam .
hari nie serius paling depressing . smlm dpt call for auntie yg manage license uh , dye suruh hrinie pegi dngr ceramah kpp balek sbb ade mslh dngn lesen aq . tak pe lar , aq pergi lar dngn rela hati dngr skali lagi ceramah non-stop 5 hours tu . the moment i arrived at the shop this morning , i met usop . excited sial , tak sangke ade jugak kawan aq nnti . mase pra-L kete harituh jumpe qilla n kwn dye , amin . sampai kat sne tdi akak uh ckp aq x boleh dngr ceramah kpp kerana lesen aq mseh ad dlm sistem . tpi dlm rekod jpj ad mslh . panjang lar jgak citenye . mlas nak ceritakan . hanya menambah luka yg sedia ada .
jarang aq jumpe member cuti nie . dh semaken mlas .... nak pergi ipoh ? lagi lar mlas .. =.= ddk kat rumah pon ad consequence nye . jiran asyik dok tnye je kat parents mne anak teruna deme yg sorang nie x nmpk2 pon keluar rmah . ye lar , parents aq aktif kat kuarters nie . do i like my life now ? yes .. wanna stay like this forever ? no . actually im not ready yet . there`s still some problems that i need to think of . plus , dngn mslh with ****#@$$$ .. it`s a long story
to change your life , it takes a lot of sacrifices , courages , determinations and a little bit of effort . i`m changing into a better a better me now . well, if i don`t succeed , at least i tried . i tend to smile a lot of times , but the truth behind those walls is hard to describe . insyallah things would become better . aminn
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