SATU SEMBILAN | LAPAN | DUA SIFAR SATU EMPAT | - my Sincere Apologize as a scholar

hye peeps . this week has been a roller coaster ride for me as i`ve been busier than ever staying up all night everyday , studying ,preparing and making myself as stressful as hell :p . owh , and not to mention all those debate , presentation , assignment that can kill me from time to time . banyak kerja x settle lagi =.=  ..even kalau x buat semue tuh . aq akan sentiasa mem-busy kan diri aku dengan exploring new things .  on this entry actually i want to address my apologize note . to whom am i apologizing ? errr ... please read until the last paragraph :P haha ... actually it has nothing to do with my daily life here. its about the past memory that will always hunt me .


firstly , rasa bersalah teramat sangat kepada mak ayah aq .. sebab ... dekat sini aq rase aq banyak fooling around almost like every second , .. it`s not like i`m not studying or revising .. but the truth is i don`t feel like it is enough  .. enough of what ? enough to redeem back the fracture of wound that i`ve created in my family heart during SPM :( ...  sebenanrye sampai sekarang aq menyesal dengan result spm aq .walaupun aq tahu apa yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya . besides , now i think that I`m happy here . *well , kind of* ... tapi the feeling of guilt is still all over my head , mind and soul .

to mak , ayah , adek , akak , n my family . im really sorry sebab dah kecewakan semue orang . sekarang bila dah sampai sini . mulai saat ini , kami janji ... kami akan study bersungguh-sunnguh untuk tebus balek kesilapan kami . kami x kan kecewakan semua orang lagi . kami tahu mak , ayah sedih dengan ap yg berlaku . kami tahu kami dah buat semua orang rasa risau . but everything is not under my control . i`ve try my best . and now . I promise to try my hardest AGAIN . and now, i`m gonna make everything worth . I promise xD


and for now i think i shall erase all those negative thoughts of turning back and just give my best shot . i will make people proud of me . keep striving . keep studying and keep focusing  . all the adrenalin generated in me now hope wouldn`t fade away for this whole foundation years . please heart , keep on enlighten my sad life  diary  here everyday ,  deep down my heart . as the end , nothing is impossible to be achieved  :) bye peeps . :)))) assalamualaikum

   

                                           keep on smiling am :). even when happiness isn`t on your side .
                                                            things will get better . please be -_-